Gotcha Roach!!!

How is it feels when you see a cockroach linger around near your legs when at the same time your are an anti-bug or anti-insect person? Disgusted and eagerly-wanted-to-kill-it, these are the two feelings that for sure you’ll feel when you see those more-than-2-tiny-legs-with-antenna-creatures crawling down near your feet.

No doubt, this creature usually always appeared on the wrong time (WT) and at the wrong place (WP).

Currently, a cockroach – let called it, Roach (regardless whether it’s a ‘he’ or a ‘she’, happened to appear with Roach’s transparent pair of wings fly high above my head during our school assembly in the school open hall. Can you see the WT and WP here?

During school assembly =WT; at the school open hall =WP

With no qualm, I’m confidently knew that Roach will make a landing on my long sleeve shirt. Abruptly because of my automatic response, I stood up while the headmaster was delivering his speech in front of hundreds of students. Fortunately, he didn’t see it except for my colleagues whose sat at the same row near to me (not forgetting the two ladies whose sat in front of me who one of them I unintentionally touched her shoulder).

FUNNY, two of my colleagues whose sat on my right became anxious and started asking me

*translation from Chinese to English

“What’s happen?”

“Something is lingering down our feet”
“What is it?”

“An insect, a BIG insect”

“Where....where....where?”

“There it is, under ‘Z’ seat. Now it heading to your seat”

Then the climax of the story happened with two female teachers frighteningly screaming and standing in front of hundreds of students and teachers while the headmaster delivering his speech.

Feeling embarrassed and hilarious I sat with my head down until the headmaster decided to turn around to check on the two teacher’s embarrassing-moment-caught-on-tape moment.

Again! I knew that Roach will never be killed since the two teachers kept on using their “ultrasonic voices” to chase away Roach.

Gotcha! Roach lying breathlessly on the floor while the students started to cheer. OMG! Now I have becoming on the participants who’s unwillingly or accidently have participated on the most embarrassing moment caught in tape.

As the Malay proverb says, “Ayam bertelur sebiji riuh sekampung,” I was considered the HERO for the day although I just killed a roach.

For sure I’m going to remember this hilarious event (16 September, 2009, Wednesday). Before I end this story, for all of the animal lovers out there, sorry because of what have happened to Roach. J

Compromising

Making decision is really the hardest thing to do especially when you are concern too much on the outcomes or consequences of the decision. But, sometimes we have the tendency to follow what our heart says. Thus, there is a possibility where we will question our rationality or insanity especially when we regret our decisions. ‘Temper’ and ‘the feeling of angry and jealousy’ often become the seducers that seduce us to say something stupid or act stupidly. While ‘egoism’ injecting our mind so that we will not giving up. Thus, this will produce new poison called ‘stubborn-ness’

Playing with words is a dangerous thing to do since you can’t take back what you already said to a person. The best thing you can do is to fix the situation by apologizing to that person. Then, you will promise not to say the same thing over again. But, sometimes you just can’t control yourself most probably because you want that person’s attention or you are totally angry or frustrating with the circumstances OR with that particular person. No doubt, without the readiness and willingness to compromise with each other, hence, it will jeopardize your second chance to be together.

The willingness to be honest, compromise and understand towards each other circumstances and needs are among the qualities that can keep two people together although the opportunity to have the second chance is still uncertain.

HELLO

It has been more than a month that ‘E’ and I never meet with each other since our last misunderstanding or ‘words war’ (an exaggeration). Last night, I took the courage by asking ‘E’ came to see me which enable me to share with him my ‘surrounding’. God know how I feel that time!!!! I thought it will be awkward for the two us to start our conversation but maybe because deep down inside that I really missed ‘E’ although I’ve tried my very best to forget about ‘E’ – As people say that sometimes you need to let your love one go if you really...really like him or her.

Maybe I did miss ‘E’ and that somehow gave me the courage to talk with him like both of us never have any fight before. However, I really unsure about our status or relationship especially at this particular moment, it’s (the circumstance) complicated. About three things that I’m really sure about are, FIRST, I miss ‘E’ more than the way ‘E’ missed me. SECOND, I don’t really care about our status or relationship as long as we feel comfortable and happy with each other. THIRD, we still need more time before we make any new steps or to prevent the same mistakes from being happened again

*For my blog....sorry coz I have been neglected ‘you’.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SO IN LOVE?

I’ll admit that I had fallen in love for several times but….often ended up not quite well. But, what is the meaning of ‘love’ since sometimes you believe that you’re falling in love with someone but suddenly you just realize that It’s not love at the first side but it more towards ‘crush’; have crush or admirer on that person. Sometimes, you believe that love had strongly bind you with your partner but then…..you realize….that it’s not love who did the ‘magic’ but it’s ‘sex’. Of course sex is undeniably can strengthen relationship between two people but….if the relationship is too dependable on ‘sex’, thus, I believe that there is no love….because love is not just about having sex but love is about understanding; understand your partner and support each other physically, mentally, socially and spiritually.

True love for me, is hard to get but easy for me to feel 'the existence of love' . Have you being in these 2 situations? You like the person but….that person doesn’t want to give the same commitment as you do although both of you believe that there is a chance for the two of you to have a great and fascinating relationship? Or you know that the person like you but you don’t feel the same way as the person does, thus, you avoid that person? I had experienced both situations. It ‘s funny coz both situation sort of ‘interrelated’ with each other – it’s like one day you are experiencing the second situation then at another day you are facing the first situation. The most important thing for me in ‘love relationship’ is not the outcomes since there can only be 2 outcomes; happy or broken hearted. ‘The having-and-experiencing-being love-and giving love-processes’ are the two that really matters for me such as, ‘words war’ with your love one, going out for date, constantly communicate and contact each other, and so on. No doubt once you love that person, you can give many reasons to your friends why you like the person. For me, this is the secret that I’ll not share with other people – why I love that person.

Sometimes what you like or love can make u biblically wrong and you know that it’s wrong and against the societies’ laws and norms but….must you sacrifice your happiness? Besides, what is the meaning of falling in love if you are not feeling happy. Yet, I know the outcome is still uncertain, still, I’ll not going to regret what will happen in the future cause for me what had happened yesterday, today and what will be happened tomorrow are the experiences for me to become mature and understand various people behavior. Besides, it shows me what kind of person I am….so I’ll take them as valuable experiences and memories although I bet some of them were quite outrageous and stupid....but that make life more meaningful and less boring.

I know sometimes I’m stuck in one of the above situations….and I know people will call it as a mistakes but….i’d chosen to be happy although I’ll not know or uncertain on what the outcome will be. Thus, I’d deliberately decided to let time decide where the relationship will go since I believe my perceptions, attitude and decisions constantly change as they’re affect by environment and current situation.

Small Yet, Meaningful Gift

I got this lovely story from someone....and i want to share it with others.

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring. Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study room. Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.

Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, 'Withall your money you give me a Bible? and stormed out of the house, leaving her husband. Many years passed and the married lady was very successful in business. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family,but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years.

But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things. When she arrived at her ex-husband's house,sudden sadness and regret filled her heart.

She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years ago. With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages.. ......

Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11 , 'And if you, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?'

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring with her name engraved on it, the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom.

On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words....'LUV U ALWAYS'... How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this.

Between seeing and observing

When I was in the hospital, one specific thing that attracted my attention is looking (or seeing) at various people behaviors. Some seem reluctant as they just like - were forced to accompany their parents (maybe their shy when many pair of eyes stared at them). Some, kept continue hold or more appropriate if I say ‘play’ with their mobile phone while their faces are undeniably bored – me is an exception as I felt fascinated looked and observed “the human” although I’m not a keen observer like Sherlock Holmes. Some, continued talked with others; either they just know that ‘others’ or already know the ‘others’ but merely encountered or talked with the ‘others’. At some point, it isn’t difficult to know whether that ‘others’ really enthusiastically listen or agree with what their partners talked about. Somehow, human just like an open-book – easy to know but hard to understand. While kids just being kids; enjoyed playing around but I bet only some really…really, really know why they were here – those who knows express concern or more appropriate if I say…’scared’ none other than the medicine and Mr and Mrs ‘N’.

It is indisputable and undeniably (sometimes dangerously and can lead to trouble) fun to observe people especially kids (I’m not someone who practices hemophilia, OK!) since the way they behave, talk or the language they uttered or used, and the paralinguistic showed in some way resemble or mirror their parents behaviors and parenting’ style (REMEMBER! I have no intention against PARENTS, OK! Since I believe in some way…I’m mirror my parents….but, it’s so complicated).

What am I trying to covey here is…..don’t get fool by what other people said to you; either they talked behind your back or in front of you because people sometimes used ‘words’ to lie. Yet, everyone has lied before Right? What is the different is the purpose of lying. Therefore, non-verbal expressions are essential aspects that we need to look at coz I bet no one want to be the ‘liars’ victim’. Trust me! U don’t need to be linguistically or psychologically experts to become an observer. The tip that I can give is ‘BE ALERT’.

XOXO THAT’S ALL

Countdown

After this month...only a month left before i'll finish my study

still...my "learning journey" will never fade away....as learning will only end when our heart stop beating

Last semester it felt like damn hell for me when completing FYP
But this semester i think i've done quite well...
What am i trying to say here are...

Don't ever make ur life too difficult for urself
Don't let other people decide what u want n need to be...but...color ur own life
Don't let other people judgment bring u down coz...they're not God
Only God decided whether...we are bad or good....because there is no absolute definition
on what is good or what is bad...
Don't feel tension but...have a life and enjoy every second of it

Friendsssssss

To all my beloved friends...

Study hard...complete ur assignment and FYP...don't just 'layan' Tagged, Skype...bla...bla...


close your eyes...and at least smile once a day because life is too short and you might not have a chance to smile at those you truthly L.O.V.E

don't forget one of your daily meals...PRAY...ingat Tuhan bayar cash

Learn the spirit of sharing...

Against all odds...L.O.V.E someone with all your heart...as L.O.V.E is the force of nature

Team work...because one for ALL and all for ONE....

Don't worry too much about your weight because it just a number...

Laugh is one of the world best medicine...

have a high self-esteem...believe in yourself and not the mirror coz...it's just a Camouflage

Always try to help friend in need... especially the children...HUMANITY

Am I A Fireman Yet?

This is a story sent by one of my friends to me about LOVE of a mother towards her child and about the COURAGE of a child who kept his ambition high although life seem to be too short for him...

In Phoenix , Arizona , a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness, she also had a strong feeling of determination.Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up & fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible…

The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dream to come true. She took her son' s hand and asked,

'Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?'Mommy,

'I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up.'Mom smiled back and said 'Let's see if we can make your wish come true.'

Later that day she went to her local fire Department in Phoenix , Arizona , where she met Fireman Bob, who had! a heart as big as Phoenix . She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her 6 year-old son a ride around the block on a fire engine.

Fireman Bob said, 'Look, we can do better than that. If you'll have your son ready at seven o'clock Wednesday morning, we'll make him an honorary Fireman for the whole day. He can come down to the fire station, eat with us, go out on all the fire calls, the whole nine yards! · And if you'll give us his sizes, we'll get a real fire uniform for him, with a real fire hat - not a toy -- one-with the emblem of the Phoenix Fire Department on it, a yellow slicker like we wear and rubber boots.''

They're all manufactured right here in Phoenix , so we can get them fast.'

Three days later Fireman Bob picked up Billy, dressed him in his uniform and escorted him from his hospital bed to the waiting hook and ladder truck. Billy got to sit on the back of the truck and help steer it back to the fire station. He was in heaven.

There were three fire calls in Phoenix that day and Billy got to go out on all three calls. He rode in the different fire engines, the Paramedic's' van, and even the fire chief's car. He was also videotaped for the local news program. Having his dream come true, with all the love and attention that was lavished upon him, so deeply touched Billy, that he lived three months longer than any doctor thought possible.

One night all of his vital signs began to drop dramatically and the head nurse, who believed in the hospice concept - that no one should die alone, began to call the family members to the hospital.

Then she remembered the day Billy had spent as a Fireman, so she called the Fire Chief and asked if it would be possible to send a firemanin uniform to the hospital to be with Billy as he made his transition

The chief replied, 'We can do better than that. We'll be there in five minutes. Will you please do me a favor?When you hear the sirens screaming and see the lights flashing, will you announce over thePA system that there is not a fire?'' It's the department coming to see one of its finest members one more time. And will you open the window to his room?'

About five minutes later a hook and ladder truck arrived at the hospital and extended its ladder up to Billy's third floor open window--------16 fire-fighters climbed up the ladder into Billy's room.

With his mother's permission, they hugged him and held him and told him how much they LOVED him.

With His dying breath, Billy looked up at the fire chief and said,'Chief, am I really a fireman now?'

Billy, you are, and The Head Chief, Jesus, is holding your hand,' the chief saidWith those words, Billy smiled and said,

'I know, He's Been holding my hand all day, and The angels have been Singing..'He closed his eyes one last time

FAVORITE VALENTINE SONGS

When it comes to Valentine Day, there are two songs which i could remember and they are "My Funny Valentine" by Chaka Khan and the song "My Valentine" by Martina McBride. Enjoy these two songs in my playlist below and the songs lyric here

My Valentine by Martina McBride

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need My love,
my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need My love, my Valentine

La da da Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all I need Is you, my Valentine

You're all I need My love, my Valentine

To My Friend, Lover and Partneron Valentine's Day

On Valentine's Day, I'm thinking of all the things you are

that make life more interesting and exciting, and blessed,

so much better in every way than it would be without you.

You're my friend...

You support me, encourage me, bring out the best in me.

I trust you and feel completely safe with you,

so I can share with you my hopes, my dreams,

and even secrets I've never told anyone else.

You've created a refuge for me to come to

when I need to escape from the hard edges of life.

You're my lover...

When we explore every part of each other,touching, teasing,

creating ecstatic fever in each other,such sweet torment--

I marvel that we can create togethersuch astonishing pleasure.

With you, I feel satisfied, complete,

wild and peaceful at the same time.

I've never felt this way with anyone else.

You're my partner...

You let me know that whatever life hands me

I'll have you on my side to help me.

I'm grateful for all that you give to me,all that you do for me.

Together, we can live life to the fullest.

I'm so glad we found each other.

You're the joy of my life,

and I'm so very happy to have you as my Valentine!

By Joanna Fuchs

Grandma's hands

This is send by a good friend of mine for sharing purposes

Grandma, some ninety plus years, sat feebly on the patio bench. She didn't move, just sat with her head down staring at her hands. Not really wanting to disturb her but wanting to check on her at the same time, I asked her if she was OK. She raised her head and looked at me and smiled. 'Yes, I'm fine, thank you for asking,' she said in a clear voice strong.
Have you ever looked at your hands,' she asked. 'I mean really looked at your hands?' Grandma smiled and related this story: 'Stop and think for a moment about the hands you have, how they have served you well throughout your years. These hands, though wrinkled, shrivelled and weak have been the tools I have used all my life to reach out and grab and embrace life. They braced and caught my fall when as a toddler I crashed upon the floor. They put food in my mouth and clothes on my back As a child, my mother taught me to fold them in prayer. They tied my shoes and pulled on my boots. They held my husband and wiped my tears when he went off to war. 'They have been dirty, scraped and raw , swollen and bent. They were uneasy and clumsy when I tried to hold my newborn son. Decorated with my wedding band they showed the world that I was married and loved someone special. They wrote my letters to him and trembled and shook when I buried my parents and spouse. 'They have held my children and grandchildren, consoled neighbours, and shook in fists of anger when I didn't understand. They have covered my face, combed my hair, and washed and cleansed the rest of my body. They have been sticky and wet, bent and broken, dried and raw. And to this day when not much of anything else of me works real well these hands hold me up, lay me down, and again continue to fold in prayer. But more importantly it will be these hands that God will reach out and take when he leads me home. And with my hands He will lift me to His side and there I will use these hands to touch the face of God.'
When you receive this, say a prayer for the person who sent it to you, and watch God's answer to prayer work in your life. Let's continue praying for one another. Passing this on to anyone you consider a friend will bless you both. Passing this on to one not yet considered a friend is something God would do..

Twilight

I'd watched the movie and read this novel, it's absolutely cool although it doesn't earn any oscar, Golden Globe or whatever nods. Certainly, love sometimes can make people being irrational coz the more you love the person the more you can't make sense on your certain behavior. Another question to ponder, "when you can live forever, what do you live for?"

Today Selected Poem

What is Love?

I can spell the word as you will see,

It starts with L and ends with O V E.

Only four letters does it take,

Yet the word love is so often fake.

I've learned not to trust it profound sound,

As it rolls off of lips, this four letter noun.

For you see word's can be given so easily,

Then quickly disappear faster than one, two, three.

The four letter word not meant to be obscene,

drives me to tears as I shudder and scream.

Why do they say what they don't mean,

then disappear leaving me without self-esteem.

But the time has come for the light to shine,

Darkness has left me, I've seen the sign.

It's not the word love that's so divine,

It's the actions of the giver, that's on my mind.

Such a fool was I that I could not see,

That the word love, dwells in mediocrity.

It's the act of kindness and a giving of heart,

That have giving me hope of a brand new start.

From this day forward it's the actions I'll seek,

Not the overused word love, from a verbal geek.

For now I know love is something we give,

Not from our mouths, but from how we live.

ref: copyright Bob McDearmid 1999 on http://romancepoetry.net/po-050.htm