Gotcha Roach!!!

How is it feels when you see a cockroach linger around near your legs when at the same time your are an anti-bug or anti-insect person? Disgusted and eagerly-wanted-to-kill-it, these are the two feelings that for sure you’ll feel when you see those more-than-2-tiny-legs-with-antenna-creatures crawling down near your feet.

No doubt, this creature usually always appeared on the wrong time (WT) and at the wrong place (WP).

Currently, a cockroach – let called it, Roach (regardless whether it’s a ‘he’ or a ‘she’, happened to appear with Roach’s transparent pair of wings fly high above my head during our school assembly in the school open hall. Can you see the WT and WP here?

During school assembly =WT; at the school open hall =WP

With no qualm, I’m confidently knew that Roach will make a landing on my long sleeve shirt. Abruptly because of my automatic response, I stood up while the headmaster was delivering his speech in front of hundreds of students. Fortunately, he didn’t see it except for my colleagues whose sat at the same row near to me (not forgetting the two ladies whose sat in front of me who one of them I unintentionally touched her shoulder).

FUNNY, two of my colleagues whose sat on my right became anxious and started asking me

*translation from Chinese to English

“What’s happen?”

“Something is lingering down our feet”
“What is it?”

“An insect, a BIG insect”

“Where....where....where?”

“There it is, under ‘Z’ seat. Now it heading to your seat”

Then the climax of the story happened with two female teachers frighteningly screaming and standing in front of hundreds of students and teachers while the headmaster delivering his speech.

Feeling embarrassed and hilarious I sat with my head down until the headmaster decided to turn around to check on the two teacher’s embarrassing-moment-caught-on-tape moment.

Again! I knew that Roach will never be killed since the two teachers kept on using their “ultrasonic voices” to chase away Roach.

Gotcha! Roach lying breathlessly on the floor while the students started to cheer. OMG! Now I have becoming on the participants who’s unwillingly or accidently have participated on the most embarrassing moment caught in tape.

As the Malay proverb says, “Ayam bertelur sebiji riuh sekampung,” I was considered the HERO for the day although I just killed a roach.

For sure I’m going to remember this hilarious event (16 September, 2009, Wednesday). Before I end this story, for all of the animal lovers out there, sorry because of what have happened to Roach. J

Compromising

Making decision is really the hardest thing to do especially when you are concern too much on the outcomes or consequences of the decision. But, sometimes we have the tendency to follow what our heart says. Thus, there is a possibility where we will question our rationality or insanity especially when we regret our decisions. ‘Temper’ and ‘the feeling of angry and jealousy’ often become the seducers that seduce us to say something stupid or act stupidly. While ‘egoism’ injecting our mind so that we will not giving up. Thus, this will produce new poison called ‘stubborn-ness’

Playing with words is a dangerous thing to do since you can’t take back what you already said to a person. The best thing you can do is to fix the situation by apologizing to that person. Then, you will promise not to say the same thing over again. But, sometimes you just can’t control yourself most probably because you want that person’s attention or you are totally angry or frustrating with the circumstances OR with that particular person. No doubt, without the readiness and willingness to compromise with each other, hence, it will jeopardize your second chance to be together.

The willingness to be honest, compromise and understand towards each other circumstances and needs are among the qualities that can keep two people together although the opportunity to have the second chance is still uncertain.

HELLO

It has been more than a month that ‘E’ and I never meet with each other since our last misunderstanding or ‘words war’ (an exaggeration). Last night, I took the courage by asking ‘E’ came to see me which enable me to share with him my ‘surrounding’. God know how I feel that time!!!! I thought it will be awkward for the two us to start our conversation but maybe because deep down inside that I really missed ‘E’ although I’ve tried my very best to forget about ‘E’ – As people say that sometimes you need to let your love one go if you really...really like him or her.

Maybe I did miss ‘E’ and that somehow gave me the courage to talk with him like both of us never have any fight before. However, I really unsure about our status or relationship especially at this particular moment, it’s (the circumstance) complicated. About three things that I’m really sure about are, FIRST, I miss ‘E’ more than the way ‘E’ missed me. SECOND, I don’t really care about our status or relationship as long as we feel comfortable and happy with each other. THIRD, we still need more time before we make any new steps or to prevent the same mistakes from being happened again

*For my blog....sorry coz I have been neglected ‘you’.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SO IN LOVE?

I’ll admit that I had fallen in love for several times but….often ended up not quite well. But, what is the meaning of ‘love’ since sometimes you believe that you’re falling in love with someone but suddenly you just realize that It’s not love at the first side but it more towards ‘crush’; have crush or admirer on that person. Sometimes, you believe that love had strongly bind you with your partner but then…..you realize….that it’s not love who did the ‘magic’ but it’s ‘sex’. Of course sex is undeniably can strengthen relationship between two people but….if the relationship is too dependable on ‘sex’, thus, I believe that there is no love….because love is not just about having sex but love is about understanding; understand your partner and support each other physically, mentally, socially and spiritually.

True love for me, is hard to get but easy for me to feel 'the existence of love' . Have you being in these 2 situations? You like the person but….that person doesn’t want to give the same commitment as you do although both of you believe that there is a chance for the two of you to have a great and fascinating relationship? Or you know that the person like you but you don’t feel the same way as the person does, thus, you avoid that person? I had experienced both situations. It ‘s funny coz both situation sort of ‘interrelated’ with each other – it’s like one day you are experiencing the second situation then at another day you are facing the first situation. The most important thing for me in ‘love relationship’ is not the outcomes since there can only be 2 outcomes; happy or broken hearted. ‘The having-and-experiencing-being love-and giving love-processes’ are the two that really matters for me such as, ‘words war’ with your love one, going out for date, constantly communicate and contact each other, and so on. No doubt once you love that person, you can give many reasons to your friends why you like the person. For me, this is the secret that I’ll not share with other people – why I love that person.

Sometimes what you like or love can make u biblically wrong and you know that it’s wrong and against the societies’ laws and norms but….must you sacrifice your happiness? Besides, what is the meaning of falling in love if you are not feeling happy. Yet, I know the outcome is still uncertain, still, I’ll not going to regret what will happen in the future cause for me what had happened yesterday, today and what will be happened tomorrow are the experiences for me to become mature and understand various people behavior. Besides, it shows me what kind of person I am….so I’ll take them as valuable experiences and memories although I bet some of them were quite outrageous and stupid....but that make life more meaningful and less boring.

I know sometimes I’m stuck in one of the above situations….and I know people will call it as a mistakes but….i’d chosen to be happy although I’ll not know or uncertain on what the outcome will be. Thus, I’d deliberately decided to let time decide where the relationship will go since I believe my perceptions, attitude and decisions constantly change as they’re affect by environment and current situation.

Small Yet, Meaningful Gift

I got this lovely story from someone....and i want to share it with others.

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring. Finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study room. Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold.

Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, 'Withall your money you give me a Bible? and stormed out of the house, leaving her husband. Many years passed and the married lady was very successful in business. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family,but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years.

But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things. When she arrived at her ex-husband's house,sudden sadness and regret filled her heart.

She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years ago. With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages.. ......

Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11 , 'And if you, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?'

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring with her name engraved on it, the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom.

On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words....'LUV U ALWAYS'... How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this.

Between seeing and observing

When I was in the hospital, one specific thing that attracted my attention is looking (or seeing) at various people behaviors. Some seem reluctant as they just like - were forced to accompany their parents (maybe their shy when many pair of eyes stared at them). Some, kept continue hold or more appropriate if I say ‘play’ with their mobile phone while their faces are undeniably bored – me is an exception as I felt fascinated looked and observed “the human” although I’m not a keen observer like Sherlock Holmes. Some, continued talked with others; either they just know that ‘others’ or already know the ‘others’ but merely encountered or talked with the ‘others’. At some point, it isn’t difficult to know whether that ‘others’ really enthusiastically listen or agree with what their partners talked about. Somehow, human just like an open-book – easy to know but hard to understand. While kids just being kids; enjoyed playing around but I bet only some really…really, really know why they were here – those who knows express concern or more appropriate if I say…’scared’ none other than the medicine and Mr and Mrs ‘N’.

It is indisputable and undeniably (sometimes dangerously and can lead to trouble) fun to observe people especially kids (I’m not someone who practices hemophilia, OK!) since the way they behave, talk or the language they uttered or used, and the paralinguistic showed in some way resemble or mirror their parents behaviors and parenting’ style (REMEMBER! I have no intention against PARENTS, OK! Since I believe in some way…I’m mirror my parents….but, it’s so complicated).

What am I trying to covey here is…..don’t get fool by what other people said to you; either they talked behind your back or in front of you because people sometimes used ‘words’ to lie. Yet, everyone has lied before Right? What is the different is the purpose of lying. Therefore, non-verbal expressions are essential aspects that we need to look at coz I bet no one want to be the ‘liars’ victim’. Trust me! U don’t need to be linguistically or psychologically experts to become an observer. The tip that I can give is ‘BE ALERT’.

XOXO THAT’S ALL

Countdown

After this month...only a month left before i'll finish my study

still...my "learning journey" will never fade away....as learning will only end when our heart stop beating

Last semester it felt like damn hell for me when completing FYP
But this semester i think i've done quite well...
What am i trying to say here are...

Don't ever make ur life too difficult for urself
Don't let other people decide what u want n need to be...but...color ur own life
Don't let other people judgment bring u down coz...they're not God
Only God decided whether...we are bad or good....because there is no absolute definition
on what is good or what is bad...
Don't feel tension but...have a life and enjoy every second of it