I’ll admit that I had fallen in love for several times but….often ended up not quite well. But, what is the meaning of ‘love’ since sometimes you believe that you’re falling in love with someone but suddenly you just realize that It’s not love at the first side but it more towards ‘crush’; have crush or admirer on that person. Sometimes, you believe that love had strongly bind you with your partner but then…..you realize….that it’s not love who did the ‘magic’ but it’s ‘sex’. Of course sex is undeniably can strengthen relationship between two people but….if the relationship is too dependable on ‘sex’, thus, I believe that there is no love….because love is not just about having sex but love is about understanding; understand your partner and support each other physically, mentally, socially and spiritually.
True love for me, is hard to get but easy for me to feel 'the existence of love' . Have you being in these 2 situations? You like the person but….that person doesn’t want to give the same commitment as you do although both of you believe that there is a chance for the two of you to have a great and fascinating relationship? Or you know that the person like you but you don’t feel the same way as the person does, thus, you avoid that person? I had experienced both situations. It ‘s funny coz both situation sort of ‘interrelated’ with each other – it’s like one day you are experiencing the second situation then at another day you are facing the first situation. The most important thing for me in ‘love relationship’ is not the outcomes since there can only be 2 outcomes; happy or broken hearted. ‘The having-and-experiencing-being love-and giving love-processes’ are the two that really matters for me such as, ‘words war’ with your love one, going out for date, constantly communicate and contact each other, and so on. No doubt once you love that person, you can give many reasons to your friends why you like the person. For me, this is the secret that I’ll not share with other people – why I love that person.
Sometimes what you like or love can make u biblically wrong and you know that it’s wrong and against the societies’ laws and norms but….must you sacrifice your happiness? Besides, what is the meaning of falling in love if you are not feeling happy. Yet, I know the outcome is still uncertain, still, I’ll not going to regret what will happen in the future cause for me what had happened yesterday, today and what will be happened tomorrow are the experiences for me to become mature and understand various people behavior. Besides, it shows me what kind of person I am….so I’ll take them as valuable experiences and memories although I bet some of them were quite outrageous and stupid....but that make life more meaningful and less boring.
I know sometimes I’m stuck in one of the above situations….and I know people will call it as a mistakes but….i’d chosen to be happy although I’ll not know or uncertain on what the outcome will be. Thus, I’d deliberately decided to let time decide where the relationship will go since I believe my perceptions, attitude and decisions constantly change as they’re affect by environment and current situation.
